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FEEDBACK

Hi Mickel,

I read this weekend your “Message from Michael”. I think your analysis is right on, and it was a relief to read it.  I guess one of the reasons I have been relating so much to Michael, since his death, is that I am from a family that tries to “dim the light” of anyone who escapes the status quo, usually by criticism and sarcasm. Michael was such a shining example of God’s possibility within us.  Thanks for explaining what makes someone an easy target.

Thank you for the whole article.

Peggy D
Tennessee







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Hello again, Mickel,
Thank you for your response, and for sending the link! I wanted to read that yesterday, but I am having difficulty with your site. The pages freeze up and shut down my internet connection, so it takes me a long time to navigate it*. Or I would have read a lot more. I did get to read, however, another great article that you had that was titled something like, “Are the normal people the sick ones?” (or vice versa?)  In that article, you also articulated things I have thought for years, but NO ONE else in my family or friends understand.  I look forward to reading “My Personal Tale” later tonite, and thank you in advance for putting me on your updates list so I can get part 2 also.

When I bring up issues such as these, the only response I get are just blank stares, or someone makes a joke of it. But for me, what you say is absolute truth.  I will keep trying to use your site because I would like to eventually read everything on it. All the best to you,

Peggy D
Tennessee

* Thanks for letting me know of the navigation difficulties. I think I have that solved, although there will be slow loaders (see above), because of the multimodal interface offered. But if it's anything more than that, please let me know. I'll work on these as long as it takes to get them right. It should not be the way you have described.



"THIS JUST IN:"
Michael Jackson's beautiful Earth Song -- I'm speechless. This is not the video that they played on the Grammy's last night. Though that was great also, this is the most powerful statement yet on the most important goings-on that this world has ever seen.




The Final Article in the Michael Jackson Series and, 
at long last, the second part of "My Personal Tale," 
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My Personal Tale:

Reflections on Persecution of the Talented, Sensitive, and Unique; and 
Culture's Sick and Contradictory Purposes

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ALERT!   ZOMBIE ATTACKS, MILLIONS DEAD, MANY REPORTED GIVING UP AND DYING SILENTLY AT HOME, WITHOUT TREATMENT
   

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The Great Reveal:
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"To Avoid Our Next Dictatorship: 
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In Memoriam. Michael Jackson's 2004 Fiasco - The Attack on Uniqueness, the Scapegoating of Feeling, the Hatred of the Free and Successful by the Sellouts, the Compromised, and the Zombie Corporate Slaves, with additional current prologue by the author
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Michael D. Adzema
"A Big Ol' 'Thank You' to George W. Bush for All the 'Hard Work' He's Done..." - text and audio clip rendition...comedic monologue
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SillyGod Humor/ Wisdom - SillyMedia - 6 video clips, humor
- by SillyMickel
Hippie Dippy Dietician, SillyMickel Adzema Serves PostApocalyptic Fare for Surviving PostBush Era Second Great Depression
(video) - SillyMickel
"Are You Filming?"
(video) - SillyMickel
"What the Hell Is That?" SillyCat, Muff - Tolerant & Bemused - Ponders Bizarre Antics of his Huge Alien Partner
(video) - SillyMickel
Muff's Brave Encounter with Metalloid Aliens Continues: "Show Me Your Tongue."
(video) - SillyMickel
Muff's Out Tonight; and All the Bedsheets Are Nervous
(video) - SillyMickel

Muff Displays Vicious Fight Tactics to Wow Recruiters
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Shamanism and Primal Therapy - - Belden Johnson
"Why Fear When I Am Here" (Second in Sai Baba series)
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The UFO Abduction Phenomenon's Challenge to Consensus Reality
 
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God Is My Psychotherapist
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Children Recalling Birth
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Birthing . . . Forgetting
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A Larger Vision 
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Voices From the Womb
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"Primal Spirit Moratorium Officially Over!

April 4th, 2004 thru January 22nd, 2009    (Thank God for Barrack Obama….)


It's Good to Be Back
(and, boy! the places we've been!)

 Mary Lynn and I (Mickel and Mary Lynn Adzema are the ones that have been offering and maintaining this site since its inception in 1997) have changed a bit since we last were actively engaged on this site.

"Republicans Canned From Top Job....
Adzemas Reborn!"

One way of putting it is that a kind of rebirth occurred in our lives, not long after Bush-McCain was defeated.   More correctly, it was only after we’d seen Barack Obama officially take over as President, and we saw the sad, reviled figure of Bush leave Washington, that we found our lives transforming, in spite of ourselves.

 

I personally began writing and couldn’t stop (I’m the Mickel).  I mean I had no intention of it.  It just seemed that so much had been built up over the Bush years; so much wanted to be said but I had the feeling that no one was listening anymore, and I was aware that the AMA and HMOs had opted for antidepressants and psychotherapy was no longer offered anywhere except out-of-pocket. One-on-one therapy wasn't the only thing to be tossed when the right-wingers came in, for even our favorite liberal commentators were no longer invited to speak their minds on talk shows. Then the miraculous happened. 

I doubt if you’re reading this you weren’t also incredibly touched by that date: the Inauguration of Barack Obama, the first Black President of the U.S. But for me, after having watched him, the way he handled controversy, ethics, attacks, and all the rest, I knew he was the first President I could actually look up to in my life since Carter.... Kennedy, too, but I was too young with Kennedy to really understand. 

 

Obama has all the characteristics that we might expect in a leader if Primal Spirit had chosen him, for he shows a primal calmness, a spiritual compassion toward his attackers, and yet a primal “truthiness” to say what needs to be said when nobody else is saying it. 

 

There couldn’t be a greater change in our country than the difference alone that will come from the example of Barack Obama, after the horrible things that grew and were nurtured to power as a result of the example of George W. Bush being cast  as the dominant world template for eight long years. But that’s over….

 

And everything has changed.  It seems that Mary Lynn and I are finding some truth in our “theme song”:
 

“In spite of ourselves, we’re gonna end up a sittin’ on a rainbow,  

“Against all odds, baby, we’re the big door prize,

“We’re gonna spite our noses right off of our faces,

“Won’t be nothin’ but big ol’ hearts dancin’ in our eyes.” 

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So, tune in, if you’re interested, cause we got lots coming. How about a slew of new articles? Check out the links on the "Latest Greatest" Page, accessed by links at the top and in the left column. How about articles with audio renditions by the author right on the same page? Would you care for some articles in the format of comedic monologue, with audio renditions as well -- check out the "Comedic Offerings" Page, through links in this sentence, on the left, and at the top. There's also articles with comedic inserts as perspective on the exposition, again with audio renditions by the author? They also can be accessed from the "Comedic Offerings" Page. How would you like video presentations of the articles, including discussion afterwards? They are in the queue; "stay tuned." Videos that stand on their own -- access these multimedia offerings through the "MULTIMEDIA" link, also in the menus in the left column. Right now, they're also likely to be accessed through the RECENT list on this page and on the LATEST-GREATEST Page as well.

Here, There, Everywhere...and Every Thing

Would you care for links to new sites -- also by us -- on topics related to Primal Spirit, with some offering products such as hard to get nootropics, anti-aging compounds, Parkinson's, Alzheimer, and Chronic Fatigue prevention products that really work? Check out the outside links for these; that's a menu in the right column. The sites offering products are not stocked yet (stay tuned), but they all have some article content. The sites that will have products, at this point, will be the Natural Self, Primal Return, and the other Natural Self site at Homestead.

Please be aware that we are operating almost a dozen sites and blogs now, and some are much more developed than others. The ones with the most content, on this date, are "SillyMickel's Calling the Noble in Spirit..." (actually on Entertonement, but I have almost 20 new articles in audio format there - figure 20 hours or so of listening.) And they're all mp3, so they can be dowloaded to your mobile; by far it has the most new material, and will continue to. The five blogs have considerable content, except for the "SillyMickel and the PlanetMates" one, which can change at any time, and what is ready and planned will make it the most exciting and provocative, in my opinion. Primal Return, Apocalypse Emergency, Time Capsule, and Apocalypse Know have substantial content, and the rest, with an exception or two have at least one new lengthy article to make it worth your while, if you're interested.

A Primal Home; A Place Primalers Belong


What I think is potentially the most exciting new development is the creation of the Primal social networking site. If you're a current or former primaler and would like to reunite with old friends or make new ones, this is potentially a lot of fun, as well as very helpful. Only primalers know how our experiences give us perspectives and ways of being that only other primalers can really comprehend. Furthermore, if you're still early in the process and are lacking sufficient support (or even if you're not), you could use this site to find others who are further along. This newly established site - Primal Oasis Gathering and Spaces - will be whatever the members make of it. So let your imagination soar. I have some ideas for events that I might offer there that would be of an educational nature, but could not be done on this site. The unique characteristic of this site - and it will be something that will be strictly upheld, for the benefit of the members - is that only people who have primaled will be allowed to join.

 

Now, I know there may be some controversy over this, but I feel it is essential for the safety of new primalers. Anyone wanting to join needs to contact me, Mickel, mickel@primalspirit.com, for an invite. I've got 39 years experience with primal, as experiencer and facilitator. I've seen people primal - and by that I mean have "real feelings" - who have done it through the holotropic breathwork modality. I was also heavily involved in an organization dedicated to Primal and found that most did not know the crucial difference between primal and other therapies - that it is totally a product of the experiencer's inner process, guided by that person's "Inner Guide," is something that can never be planned in advance by a therapist or be the experiencer, is always a surprise, happens when one gives up "trying" to "primal" and simply opens up to what is happening in the "Now," in ones body-spirit, not one's defenses or monkey-mind, and is a process that is impossible, is aborted or killed, as soon as a therapist - or the experiencer - plans, controls, or directs the process. I need to point this out because I've seen more fake primalers and fake primal therapists by far than I have ones who are really "experienced."

 

So this will not be a place for primal yellers or primal screamers or those who have gone through primal rituals, or primal ritual therapy. I am sorry for the people who have never been exposed to true primal therapy because of so many therapists claiming they are offering it who have basically figured it out from Janov's book. It sounds funny, but that is exactly what happened in the history of the Primal movement, when Janov refused to say anything more about how primal was done, than what was in his first book, and required people to come to him and go through the therapy before he would release the keys to the kingdom. In that, unfortunately, while I understand his reasons, he ended up creating exactly that which he was trying to prevent. Because without any clear indications about primal beyond The Primal Scream, then experiencers were completely without any guidelines for evaluating pseudo-primal therapists; and even pseudo-primal therapists could convince themselves they were doing it correctly without anything from primal specifically in print that would have indicated to them that they weren't getting it.

 

This sad part of primal history will be brought out in various ways here on this site in the near future. I have no intention to tear down anything or anyone, but I have every intention to get the truth out for those sincere people who want true primal therapy. And I will be doing everything in my power to see that people will have options and people will have places to turn. The Primal Oasis site is the first in that project. Also there is the Wiki site, where we will be gathering to work on this problem and to come out with something in writing that might be more helpful, as guidelines, than what Janov did.

 

The amount of time that has been wasted by well meaning people engaged in shadow primal therapy - primal therapy that some person figured out with their head was "probably" the way it would be done - is a tragic loss. It breaks my heart to know some of these people and to know they never got the benefits, and never will, that they would have gotten had that time, and money, been applied to the real thing. It's sadder still, because I'm sure many would like to console themselves that even if it wasn't the exact right thing that it was at least close, or in the right direction. For a long time I hoped that were true for these people. I will be disclosing how I found out, without a doubt, that not only is it not close or in the right direction, it actually is counterproductive in reinforcing the same kind of controlling behaviors, or planning behaviors, that are the essence of neurosis. True primal is about "surrendering" to what is, discovering the unexpected, and has the characteristic that the session is a surprise to both experiencer and facilitator. So any session that is planned in advance ("My therapist is going to give me a birth primal today" -- is not primal; but it is common.) is a session where real feelings have no chance to be felt; there is simply no allowance for them. I will say lots more about this in the articles that will be published here. I'm simply saying this much for the sake of the Primal Oasis membership requirements. There may be some hurt feelings around this membership requirement; all I can say is that I will do my best to give people options - I don't believe there are any "bad" people involved here; just unfortunate ones.

"Prozac, no.... Natural Self, si"

Concerning the products on our product sites, our proudest discovery is this state-of-the-science line of herbal-amino-natural compound mixtures that serve -- effectively, we've tried them; nothing else even compares -- as natural substitutes for the most common prescription drugs being madly scripted as panaceas by physicians, but having extremely harmful long-term effects.

Sometimes you need to fall asleep and can't; sometimes you need a tranquilizer to make it through your day. You're either using one and putting up with the dependency and feeling of unnaturalness, non-primalness, or you're afraid to get a prescription for fear of getting hooked. Well, how about something that works as good, has no side effects, and is not addictive, and is comprised of natural compounds that have been used safely in other cultures for thousands of years?

 

Or how about an antidepressant as powerful as Prozac, with no side effects and is completely natural, and doesn't need to be taken constantly to turn you into a different personality? How about a substitute for the Ritalin and Adderal (amphetamine) they are giving children for ADHD, which is just as effective in stimulating you and allowing you to focus but, again, not addictive, all natural?

 

Or a precise mixture of naturals similar to the ADHD product that you will like better than a morning cup of coffee, will not make you nervous, will make you feel like tackling your todo list and making short work of it, and is actually good for you? Or a substitute for Viagra that's harmless?

 

Anyway, these are just some things we've been researching for many decades but only now found things that were as powerful as these drugs but were safe and had no after effects or dependency let alone addictive potentials. I know, we thought it was too good to be true, too. Maybe the Universe, "God," "Higher Power," is letting us discover them now because of the unprecedented, never before so dire, just absolutely huge challenges we are facing now.

"Have You Heard Gaia's Been Looking for You?.... Needs a Hand.... She's in Trouble, and Especially Needing her Primal Allies

 

With the environment on the brink, and a real Doomsday for ourselves and all species on this planet rushing toward us, we're going to need to be authentic, real, primal, and truthful. We're going to have to adopt primal ways of being, e.g., we're going to have to learn to be fearless in facing the horribles outside of us and commit to giving what we authentically can give to the challenge of all challenges, to save all life on this planet, including our own and that of our families; just as many of us faced the horribles inside, knowing that if we did not our lives would end miserably and tragically.

Just as we say Primal saved our lives, we're going to need our realness, our primal "truthiness," or, dare I say, our primal refusal to swallow the palliatives, distractions, trivialities, misinformation, and outright lies put out by the media bullshit-machines to protect the profits of their corporate and "filthy rich" owners. We're going to need to follow our Primal need to know and face the truth, whatever it is, knowing that only lies can kill you.

Well, when it comes to this kind of truth, lies will guarantee everyone's demise; our planet will become another Mars. The truth may not stop that, for it will require more than just you and I or other primal people, but certainly our primal stance to face truth is what Nature is needing right now. We are being called out by Gaia, all our fellow planetmates -- the other non-human beings we share this planet with -- Nature, and the "better angels" of our being (as Obama so richly expressed it one time) to put our Primal benefits into action on behalf of something other than ourselves.

 

 

 

 

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"My Personal Tale: 
Part 2:   How to Commit Soul Murder, for Dummies"

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Introduction - Part Two

 

You're still here, huh! Ready for Part 2…the "big reveal" ha, ha. Well hang on to your pants. As Scout Niblett says in "Nevada": "Let's come back a little changed." Ok, venture within, but expect to come back a little changed.

Who's that I hear? Somebody saying "who'd want that!?" 

I thought we'd gotten rid of all Republicans in the last description in Part 1! Well, this one's either, just wandered in, is one of those paid zombie spies (or thugs) we've been hearing about lately, or is a glutton for punishment.

 

Please sir or madam. Reading stuff this self-revelatory could be shocking to your type. It might even be dangerous; could stress out your heart to come face-to-face with someone's inner life -- seeing as how you don't have one; it could be quite alien, probably very scary (which is probably why you've buried yours). OK, no offense, but Republicans and all kitty-drowners or butterfly-mashers, pleaaase….exit, all exits to the right.

 

OK, now for the rest of us, well if you didn't hear part 1; don't know how this'll make a lot of sense; but hey, you just might be sensitive enough to enjoy the emotional roller coaster ride. Still, would be better to hear part 1 first.

Now, this part. Everyone else, read the title of Part 2: "How to Commit Soul Murder, for Dummies."

There's really no more description needed. You can check out the quotes for any better ideas.

But I will say; this is going to end quite unpredictably for most of you. I don't think all but the very wise and astute would be able to envision this ending.

 

Ok, you've been warned (must have a soul); you've been encouraged: have soul, then travel; enjoy the emotional roller coaster; and you've been challenged, can you see the ending coming? At all? That's OK because I wouldn't have been able to until I'd reached the level of life wisdom that I acquired at about age 57 -- which is only two years ago. So don't feel bad about that. But consider then what you may learn in life about your life experiences and how you may change your views about them, with greater life experience.

That is the gift I offer you. Its here for all with the courage and the desire. See you around the soup of consciousness. It's been nice swirling with you.

 

(Continued at "My Personal Tale, Part 2....")


My Personal Tale:
Reflections on Persecution of the Talented, Sensitive, and Unique; and Culture's Sick and Contradictory Purposes

PART  1:  Fathers, Sons, and
Everyone Inherits a Laundry Room

- by SillyMickel Adzema
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My Personal Tale:
Part  1:  Fathers, Sons, and
Everyone Inherits a Laundry Room

- by SillyMickel Adzema

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Introduction - Part One

This is a very personal tale, raw with unabashed emotion, yet comfortably humorous, often heart-warming, a story like many others that you will see yourself in, and yet a story that is unlike any other and one that many will not believe could actually have happened in this modern era; or even in this century. I am laughing as I write this - But it is true. I am laughing because sometimes I myself cannot believe it, and my sisters and brothers, who lived much of it with me, share that feeling at times too.

It is rich in psychological drama of three generations, three men, and the unconscious, unwanted, but unavoidable inheritances we receive, father to son or mother to daughter, from one generation to the next -- the strange mixture of scars, which, tended to correctly, may show themselves to be blessings. If you're not getting a clue and getting turned off; you're probably way over your head already. Go back. Pass Go. Collect $200 and have fun with it. Bye.

Now for you, yea you. The one being here in all their physical presence and with all that swirling going around inside. You know who you are. Here you are, and I know exactly where that is, ha! Did you think I didn't know you are right smack dab in exactly the same Universe as me! (I woulda said Mind, but with all that swirling, I didn't know if you'd freak.) You, the physical one, with consciousness seeping out and mixing with the Ocean of Awareness, including my own. Nice to see you again. Anyway, you're here, bringing your world of contradictory feelings and confusions and pushes and pulls. I see ya.

 

Well, now that the "Republicans," for lack of a better word to explain the ones who actually see a benefit in that their souls have been stolen, are gone, I can speak more personally, if you're so inclined.

This story is told by me; and I am a person who has dedicated his life to self-discovery. I bet you don't know many people who have a B.A., literally, in "Self-Understanding" from an esteemed historical university (not some b.s. biblical or internet fantasy u). This won't be the first time that you'll think I'm kidding and I won't be. But to continue, I also facilitate deep experiential therapy, and have almost forty years experience of that kind of self-exploration. The fact that this audio and writing before you that I let come through me brightened my horizons even a little more is an example of how the richer one's self-awareness, the easier it is to reap even greater rewards of understanding.

To dispel some misnotions: This is not a tale of hate, resentment, or anger by any means. It was a story like that for many years. But the surprise is in the true fruits of experience that is honestly faced and followed to whatever wisdom it leads. And the place it leads is a gift. To myself. But I believe it is also a gift to the listener, a surprise one. One that is wrapped like a Christmas gift, the contents of which you can not even guess, which at the right time reveals itself to your delight and makes you happy you had to wait.

It is my story. It was triggered by my contemplation of Michael Jackson's life and three articles that I wrote about him, two alone, just since his release from his skin prison to return home to Life Itself.

Since it is my story, I will tell you only that you will find this fascinating, a delightful listen, and a heartbreaking, enlightening, and uplifting tale in the end. Or, especially if you are a Republican or otherwise not much into self-reflection, personal growth, or therapeutically inclined, you will hate yourself as well as me if you continue any further than this, and if you are still here, I don't know why, because you are probably already feeling irritated by my style. So go, because it will only get worse for you.

If you are of the introspective, existential, visionary, and dreamer camp; you will probably receive a personal gift for staying and listening; just as I did by "listening in" on Michael Jackson's life

 

Another way of saying this is that a life that is openly and unashamedly shared, like Michael Jackson's was, is a gift to all that take it in. My story has that same unashamed quality of saying it exactly as it was to me, and so honestly that it has never been told this thoroughly and honestly before, as I never had been inspired to lay this part of it out this way before. In doing so I feel solid and rich; uncaring of the myriad feelings -- not all good -- that my authentic, unframed, "untagged" experiences will bring forth in others. For that which hasn't already been wrestled and forced beneath some ill-fitting "tag" is just a Rorschach test for all who view it; and so what you see in me will likely be far more your own image than mine, just as I saw mine in Michael's.

But if you do not recognize that, hell, you may see your demon or angel or just about anything. If you are not very evolved, you may even blame that on me; again that is what happened to Michael Jackson for not staying in the jar and being happy just for getting -- whoop-de-do -- breathing holes!

For in living authentically, as Michael Jackson has demonstrated for us all one time again, like many authentic people in the past, in truly being yourself you will be more loved and more hated than if you take the safe route of hiding.


So listen to this or not; I've already received my blessings and my gifts out of this experience. They are there for you too, but it is all in you and up to you to reach for them, or not; and to decide if now, later, or not in this lifetime. All are correct decisions; there can be no wrong ones ever (only instructive or learning ones). Ain't life great! It's been nice swirling around for a spell in the consciousness soup with you. :-) Later!

(Go to "My Personal Tale, Part One)


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